haven't had so much fun for a while :)

its hard to find someone that talks on the same wavelength as me, that can challenge me and yet not appear intimidating at the same time. Its hard to find someone to hold a conversation about Machiavelli, Jean-Jacques Rousseau, politics, golden ration, v-formation, atheism, the English language, Singapore's history, the abstractness of time and so much more, all within three hours. it was good time spent, plus we get to explore Singapore, disguising the fact that we got lost for a bit.

then again, its even harder to find a bestest that is always there for me. for the childish movie and much needed water and drive back to hall plus depressing/confused talks and for always believing in me. i cannot ask for a better friend.

i'm not good with words, but i'll try to explain
its like he's always not here with me, even though at times i push him away from me.
its like i miss him so much it doesnt matter anymore,
because i've learnt to live without him.
i'm not in any way needy, and i enjoy my freedom in every way.
the thing is, he's not my priority, and i dont want to be his priority.
we're meant for greater things, and we both know.
we've come to far to forget, but yet, we shouldnt continue deceiving ourselves.
maybe our time is up.
but the end of something is always a beginning of another.
i'm not actually afraid of losing him, i'm just afraid of losing memories of him.
it was a good relationship. not exactly the healthiest or least destructive, but nonetheless unforgettable. had been and always will be.